Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. -James 1:2-3
I guess this is a moment for me to find out if I really believe what I read in God’s Word. If you’ve ever been laid off unexpectedly (or even the expected kind) you know what I’m talking about. I have a mortgage, bills, a son and a wife as of next month. I teeter on the edge of going insane. I hate not being in work. I’ve found that, despite what I know of my worth to God, it seems I had much of my worth tied up in the ability to earn a living and take care of my family and my bills. It’s depressing to go to bed every night knowing that I am not getting up for work. I am searching for a job and praying that God will lead me to the right one.
Amidst all this, I know that I serve the Sovereign God of All Creation and that none of this surprised Him. I am relying very heavily on the comfort of His Sovereignty. Nevertheless, I find myself struggling to be content in the waiting. I know he must have a purpose for this trial and I do hope to learn and grow from it. It’s easy to know things in your head but to struggle with them in your heart.
Oh God, be my strength. Let me hear from you. Teach me. Use me.